A Disciple's Thread

[Candy]

i love cry me a river..

i am really sorry i wont be able to make that track for you yall have to ask cody nash or someone like that they pretty cool they prolly do it for you

[A Disciple]

I can’t wait until the day I finally get to see him and ask him why… how someone like me get an Angel like him anyways? And he’s one the only I hold equal to you… I laugh when I hear realest killaz cause I wore my bandanas like that first… and nah Im Cheryl I know I’m not pac but I see him A LOT and mostly in my darkest hours or closest saves… he was trying so hard to get me to remember when they hurt me in myrtle beach in 2010. I just couldn’t get it or understand even if I did grab my favorite bday outfit when I ran. Sometimes I even wonder if he’s family somewhere along the lines cause how much I hate jails too. I never would snitch that’s your life in my city I would’ve done the time if I got caught back then but when I stole the car I was fidgeting like a punk bitch which is the funny part. They just freak me out - it’s why I tried to support any of my peoples that went. And then oh boy right here how I left and like that’s my own fault I’m still sleeping alone now for that too!

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@csndy it’s ok I love you for trying!!!

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Where the hell @Cody _nash been any way?!???

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When I’m upset the first thing I do is hit the cemetery to talk to Hollins too… when I was in Nc and came up even the police let me ride thru at night to visit they didn’t pull me or nothing

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Now my current situation… when I woke up I looked him up and I thought he only got 5 years so I wrote to ask why… he’s one of mine too and I hope you can understand and accept and even co sign that too

[Candy]

thanks love you to..

yeh i dunno cody and mcd baron rest of the cats have been out for awhile i been hangen with em and poetry crew of in the playoffs..

after the playoffs though i might not be on this site much cause i most come here for the writing leagues and tournaments

[A Disciple]

When I feel my heart ache I always thought it was you… but now when it’s at my peace and comfort I get confused… then I hear Rakim talking about squeezing lungs and talking in tongues and I caught tongues when Hollins was murdered too so I don’t know… that ass taps the knives to my wrist or threats to my throats, pins, water blazay blah like…

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I’m not playing pick a pedi cause I was getting abused LIKE CRAZY TOO!!!! … idk what’s going on but slowly I see and feel it being resolved… I got you and you - that’s all I know in my heart for now

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@Candy nooooo don’t leave!!!! I like the leagues too!!!! when everyone hopped to the other site I stayed… I’m too fucking loyal like that but you better not and before you do it you do hmu so we can still keep in touch on social media - I appreciate the gold hearts who still treat me like a person even though I can be a mental freak!!!!

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I can so see me standing on the corner throwing rocks at people one day and I hate it!

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@Candy cry me a river reminds me of my I’m pretty sure I had a baby baby dad the uptown version and bird one!

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The best of the mid generation French and meek mill by far

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The youngings? The woman are dominating by far!!!! And I do like them all

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And unfortunately of the ones slain… I literally loved them all too especially Nipsey and Pop Smoke

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I thought there was some hip hop homicidal maniac shooting all the ones succeeding down cause he didn’t make it at one point - like I couldn’t understand all that killing at all

[Candy]

heres my facebook add me as a friend

https://www.facebook.com/aaron.batty.7/

[A Disciple]

You don’t have to be scared bitches… no one going to jail over punks like you!!!!

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I probably poke you in the forehead and you fall down anyway…

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@Candy just sent you friend request - you get it?

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Nah I wasn’t having sex when I came home I only been with like 5 people in like 9 years… I always did have a lot of male friends though and some I was sleeping with and some I wasn’t… your cousin???? HELLLLL NOOOO lmfao he wish though

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He dodging me today… and I’m a let him and give him that.

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I do have a bad vibe inside… he said don’t do nothing he wouldn’t so maybe I go do something he would and is to feel better… idk the only way I’ve ever played this position before was when and if I’m first! However, I don’t think that’s gonna happen and we gonna stay cool but I’m not with being sided at all. And I HATE being with guys that date skinny bitches too! If I feel a tad of insecurity coming - I swear I’m pulling away!!!!

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It feel like pokes of it are seeping out…

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This song reminds me of you like when we were kids and all and I mean kids, kids… like the first time I saw you in McDonalds in Oceanside when I was having my bday party. … and like idk

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I’m almost out of words to say to make you understand…

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My double whisper back to me and all…

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My life line flashes was CRAZY!!!!!!!

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Do I have babies?

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Do we have babies?*

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I always change the words to song just “try to understand the way I am… and when I can I will

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Like nah I know what I am and am not built for and I’m fine now after the intial 25 slices to my soul

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It’d be even funnier if you remember too… you were walking out and I noticed the gold in your eyes

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Did they shoot me? Cause I know we can cover shit up since that hotel I had the miscarriage in…

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And being opposite sides and all it just feels like… I’m exhausted. I don’t want a man I need a best friend

[Candy]

yeh got it sexy

[A Disciple]

Henny turned to Honey


You can start that like coming from my sons perspective of us to now or times back then to

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How they are now…

[Candy]

[A Disciple]

The funniest part was talking about game and how they correct me and say THE game and I’m like no… Game

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“I know you don’t love me…” I’d laugh and laugh and laugh (now I know why)

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There is NO excuse for get your ass in the trunk but in defense we ALL were babies!!!!!

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I used to say almost like they in competition with new york being so close like they had to prove something.

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Why I can’t find the 320 bars one?

[A Disciple]

Talking to my boy who has been shot and has hit insanity too… he agreed insanity is worse!

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The interviewer

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Freeway is spoon it’s on now…

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He gave me a split second… I got him too

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Long long time ago

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Different father? … ironic and nah idk either

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Seen it all… but my partner got arrested 1.5 - 3 yrs later and like… IM THE REALEST BITCH IN THIS

[A Disciple]

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Mammy and pappy what motherfucker

[A Disciple]

I’m just gonna stay mad though

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I didn’t write that though but it’s all good

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Now I got to wait for all that now too? Nah… right now?

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All those shadows reminding me where I would’ve been? And now he siding me… like… what if I’m good though and decide to stay right here though?

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Right now I kinda might…

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I have a good heart but I might though… maybe I stay right here

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Drink texts never work out though…

[A Disciple]

You want a play list… right?

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I’m trying to go to the casino… he’s always hesitant

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“Runaway Pusha t long version”

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I must’ve but I don’t remember so what you tagged me and I tagged him pretty sure

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I’m so tired of spinning like this…

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I’m not gonna speak in tongues cause I’m too scared to speak to you

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Drunk… you?

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He siding me today… but I’m fine any way… you know?

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Like waiting to go to the casino…

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I’m sleeping alone still any way so I don’t give a fuck either way

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Nah but I always look like that bitch though? … nah

[A Disciple]

He NEVER let me go… I wanna cry right now


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My boy kept saying I was 2.5 months old in that pic… I’m surrounded by angels I’ll be ok!!!!

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I’m still going to find out who terrorized the hell out of my father and made him drink himself to death and kick them in the nuts though…

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Until I don’t feel so stupid and look you in the eye again? 3-6 months maybe… you had a father that loved you too! I heard you was real mean now and that money changed you but I don’t believe it! <3

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And can look you in the eye again*

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Yeah that’s crazy but and now I know why he was EVERYWHERE especially in my darkest hours or close saves and like I know I’ll see him again whether he dead or alive still or not… and I’m a tackle him and give him a huge hug!!!!!! He had an amazing heart too huh? Must be in the blood!

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Sir I was upset… what would you say? We dropped $5-7k in the casino EASY!!! LoL

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I don’t know which side or what but my jail fears and how it kept me straight is hysterical now!

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Why you take that money back?!? Now I’m fucked financially for like 4 weeks again!!!

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This morning around 7am I hear a one liner like game shame came and I felt the back of my head pulling like I was about to have a seizure

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I don’t understand after the gang rape and all especially the 3 bangs etc… LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM TO EVEN BEGIN WITH AND WHO?

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I guess that’s why my dad fought for custody of me in the divorce? If it’s same mother I wanna cry even more cause one of my boys in Nc did say she only was an hour up the road. I wish someone said something first you know? Especially when they gone now.

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I know… eyes, nose, and mouth LOL .. I’m pretty positive I get it now <3

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C T hates you… removing that tat and all… you phony as all hell too huh? I can’t even think of all the prayers I said for you over the years. GO TO HELL AND STAY THERE TOO!!!!

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I gave your necklace that hung in my bathroom back cause I got a new team and I didn’t want it stolen. I died when we broke up and stayed dead - it was the only thing that gave breath to me again. It sucks to be good at something bad until I realized how good I was at work too… I didn’t have to no more and pac would never let me anyway

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I just want to respect my family too especially cause I never even noticed and was more spoiled than my brother and sister. My mom is an Angel and is example of my best me. It’ll work out…

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How hyper I used to being and trying to walk out the hospital on anaphylactic even funnier too… they were taking too long and I was starting to feel better

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I had the dream 5-6 shots thru the passenger door too �� mad more scenarios too and it’s all effed up now… I believe that this life just prepares you for the next and I will see the rest of my family again regardless!

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Yeah I want to but now I really need to balance stuff out too… AND EARN SOME MONEY!!!!!

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I always felt I never wanted to be famous cause you can’t punch anyone in the face… and I wouldn’t really go there and disrespect either but I do wanna write!!!!

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I’ve always preferred to blend in a crowd

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I caught the line about a hundred thousand dollar Barr… I know for fact some of mine has to be worth major too I PRAY

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“I hit it and I did it and now it’s properly done… “are you still down” just friends and people I know I can trust and be safe!!!!