A Disciple's Thread

[A Disciple]

Like who just tapped my foot? Idk who is who or how many people even got on my body to begin with and it feels icky

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I don’t fuck with strangers in the shade… only did one time and what I was looking for wasn’t there to begin with…

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Why do they have the rite or say to my decisions and what’s important to me

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I didn’t jump back in but

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Why am I forced to sit here with them when I don’t want to?

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Not to mention the body abuse and disrespect

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Well hey… when I was getting my ass kicked in ways that only MY god should’ve been able to do I tried to send it back and took it to the site… you have NO clue what that was like and to be intertwined with people who tried to kill me too on demand. NO!

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ITS MY FUCKING BODY!!!!! Like and yeah it’s MY gods too… so how did I get an abusive one that makes me feel icky and tries to change my entire design and personality too?

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You can’t sit there and just tag a bitch and abuse any bitch you want or feel like though

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Every time I say Lord I hear him ask for forgiveness and it took me 10x to type that word like someone trying to say they run me instead of me too!!! That’s not my religion or god!!!!!! So why and how and like why they just allowed to spiritually do anything they want to do even without your permission!!!!

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WHAT THE FUCK IS THATTTTTT?!??

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BITCH YOU CANT CALM ME DOWN EITHER

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Not the temper type but trying to bitch me? Force a bow? Oh you just no so you decide and not me? WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?

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I can’t do that with them and I can’t do it alone either

[Candy]

you gotta set up the next match so i can drop a verse i got one stored up hehe

[A Disciple]

I just automatically blow a kiss back sometimes

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WHEN I HEAR THEM SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO AWAY

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@Candy what’s it about?

[A Disciple]

I just don’t understand anyone or any god that would sit here and force me over there instead of my own family… and this maggot right here like he serving me last rites?

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Pins to my eyes and what about poetic justice and “PS BEFORE YOU GO BLIND” nah I don’t relate fully but the name struck

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“About to crash up on the curb cause my vision blurry” and no disrespect but anyone ever talk to you about weird shit?

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I just run and do random shit off emotions… and getting the “speech” all alone AND.being bitched at the same time?

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It’s weird and this is weird and sorry I am weird too but I didn’t write this preset… and you’re still in the studio dealing with the spiritually I assume you can maybe help me too!

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Nah I pray not but my boy reminded me God makes the final call in the end I stay freaked out for 8 years now

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Like it feels like someone thinks I’m going god shopping or something or like they can pick mine for me type shit

[Candy]

i was going to do a hercules type story about the birth of riding a pony into town like a cowgirl type story - topic: your ass

[A Disciple]

“Wake me up when I’m free” and like yeah pac… you must’ve gone thru this living hell too but when it was all so ironic and like

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Just funny or the please don’t ask me that

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My shadows though and now they all forcing theirs too?!???

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The levels of hell it remind me of and the rules? If I can’t be myself and make sense of or peace of this…

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Tap to my chest… body locked (but I didn’t say it, I don’t trust it, and I want to chose it)

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WAKE ME UP WHEN MY NIGHTMARE IS OVER AND THEY STOP DEMANDING

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There is a god on my body that isn’t mine and I don’t like them either

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This isn’t pick a god either cause I usually have one

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@Candy my ass… I can think of 20 things to say but I never realized it was cute before. Ced said it once walking up the stairs outside the mall. I explained my down and up between my legs pic (assuming the angle you would’ve seen it from… TGF I mean! Just weird shit… I don’t know much… you all pros… not me

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I rather be better than expected then worse and these bitches are really freaking me out. Like he was airing me out or at least by having someone to talk to like that and write and EVERYTHING WAS FINE. And I feel like I’m the only one that doesn’t know what the fuck is even going on!

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You’re dead wrong for that… who?

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So who else has to live like this too?!?? Any one here? Anyone that can relate?

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Time seemed to impossibly fly by again… that isn’t my zone, my man, my friend, or my god

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Maybe I’ll try to go to bed…

[A Disciple]

I’m going to bed… long story short… they throwing up “2 signs”

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I never did a hallucinogen before though

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It feels like your hallucinating

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Nah I don’t want him but I did…

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It feels like being held hostage to be honest… I just want my god and my family and my peace and comfort back. My god isn’t usually this close to my body and I can’t see him disrespecting me or bullying me around in it either - that’s what it feels like too

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Sleep… nite

[Candy]

nice yeh

[A Disciple]

@Candy what you up to?

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Good morning!!! LoL I added the Australian time to my phone

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Tap to my stomach… trying to find out who on my body like that too

[Candy]

just woke up about to have a coffee and listen to songs

[A Disciple]

Cool what songs? @Candy

[Candy]

i usually just listen to my own but sometimes mcd

[A Disciple]

Nice… send me some more of yours

[Candy]

are you sure you want to see it





https://soundcloud.com/aaron-batty-951093780

[A Disciple]

My phone rang and I didn’t hear it and it was right next to me… and I’m tired of being treated like a toy and not a person… hearing them bitches every day or even feeling like them… not being stupid like something is up that everyone but me no and I’m the one that looks like a stupid reject bitch. And nah I’m not the type to put my business out there but when you crazy for real and can’t help it vs the I was trying to make it stop. Like why they allowed to block my family and try to dictate shit. Then this maggot kissing my hands and all of it!

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The pic is right there… I got beat the fuck down in my own home and didn’t even know it

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And the mental intake report tried to hide that fact too

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It’s my worst fucking nightmare… I just wanted to write.

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That’s why I went off… I know switching is your zone but it isn’t mine

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IM TELLING YOU NOW AND FOR THE LAST TIME ME SJDING WITH THEM BITCHES OR HAVING ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM EVER AGAIN IS NOT AN OPTION AND I WILL NEVER CHANGE MY MIND. You with them instead of me that’s fine - and if that’s what’s up you never have to see me again either! But before you go get the sick and twisted senior citizen the fuck off of and away from me. THATS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN AND IF I CANT BLOW YOUR HEAD OFF ILL BLOW MINE IF THATS WHAT IT TAKES TO PROVE IT TO YOU SO YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!

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I RATHER DIE WOLF!!! I’m not even attracted to you, we have NOTHING in common, wtf is your problem for real? How you expect me to be with somebody I can’t even fuck?!?? Sorry I’m trying to get untied and out of hell… not chained to it with a twisted freak like you

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@Candy yeah she has a nice ass but I’m not into girls…

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I flipped over not hearing the phone cause it’s NEVER OVER I am CONSTANTLY REMINDED IM SOME TOY AND BLOW UP DOLL BITCH!!! WHEN THE FUCK IS IT JUST OVER?!??? The spy cam… I was right there and didn’t hear those recordings either (you know the one where the cop said it was my cat turning on and off the tv) and like… this isn’t some fight of my life or game or some challenge I face. ITS A CONSTANT NIGHTMARE EVERYTIME I TRY TO GET CLOSE TO MY FAMILY OR CREED It’s I ain’t even do shit to begin with!!!!!